#5

i'm so tired to be tired...this exhausting learning will kill me.
the worst thing is that despite my shortage of time i still read a lot and the books i read are not optimistic at all. they always make me think that life has no sense if you are not smb's loved one and you don't love anybody.
all stuff that we do every day is done just because we want to feel happiness someday. but that feeling of happiness isreally dual. on the one hand we have physical feeling and on the other is an event that make us feel it.
the thing is that we can go an easy road to that event and reach it very fast. but also we can choose another way with lots of obstacles on the road. the question is - does it worth so many efforts?
i'm frightened that life will become uninteresting.